Big Gay Talk: For Gay men who had relationships with women, how do you feel about it now?
User esuom_y_nona wants to ask:
Back in high school, when I was masturbating to gay porn all the time, I somehow still saw myself as straight. (How? It was the 1990's.) Developed a crush on a girl, dated another girl for a few months, enjoyed kissing her, then she dumped me to get back with her ex, and I was heartbroken. Then in college I met another woman, who I repeatedly dated and broke up with over a period of years as I went through a very prolonged process of coming out to myself.
The college girlfriend is happily married to another man. She and I are on good terms. I even went to her wedding, and every year she sends me a Christmas card with pictures of her husband and kids.
The relationship itself was not really that bad. I mostly feel regret at the time wasted by repressing my feelings and not being out to myself.
What about you guys?
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